एक खत़ जिंदगी के नाम

 प्रिय, Dear क्या लिखूं कुछ समझ नहीं आ रहा। सोचा दोस्त के नाते ही लिख दूँ।

अपने बारे मे क्या लिखूं वो सब तो तुम्हें पता ही है। 

तुमसे शिकायतें ज्यादा है, डरो मत, उतनी भी ज्यादा 

नहीं। हाँ, तो मै ये कह रही थी कि तुम कभी दस्तक देके

 क्यूँ नहीं आते। अब बता के आओगे तो मै भी पहले से 

तैयार रहूंगी ना? याद है, पिछली बार मै कैसे अपने 

कमरे मे बिखरे बाल समेटे, बिना काजल वाली आँखों

से खिड़की के बाहर देख रही थी कि, तभी तुम, खुशी के

साथ आये थे।  

ऐसा नहीं है कि मै खुश नहीं हुई, पर मुझे

 पता होता तो मै थोड़ी तौयार रहती ना। पर तुम्हें मेरा

 सजना संवरना अच्छा कहा लगता है? तुम कभी बताते

 भी  तो नहीं कि मै तुम्हें कैसी लगती हूं?

अच्छा सुनों कभी चाय पियोगे मेरे साथ? तुम्हारे जवाब

 का इन्तजार रहेगा।

S

Reflection

14 March 2020

The day when I was in my college library, reading about the plasma membrane and figuring out all the functions. After utilizing 1.30 hrs I thought to come back tomorrow and read the same book. 

(Everything is in present there is no space for tomorrow.)

From 15 March to date I am at home packed in my cocoon.

 

Things, I realized by staying at home.

1) Human beings are the social animal 

Before the entry of this virus in our life, we used to have our own life. The same regular routine, busy schedules, no time to eat, no time for family, and more issues. We are just running from one corner of our life to another blindly and crying in the end that there is so much darkness in our path. 

Now the question is, who created this darkness? Is there anyone else living our life? Is there anyone else controlling our brain? Most probably the answer is no. But still, we are in a race. Race of what? I don't the answer yet. 

After repeating the same hazardous routine, now we are not used to this relaxation. We always used to be in the working mode and, this pause button is hurting. In the beginning, we all are clueless. Don't know what to do, and from where to start? 

Going through all the news I realized that people are complaining from their cocoon, and the homeless one is taking actions. 

We have socialized our life so much outside that we don't know how to socialize in our home. 

2) We have nothing to loose

We arrive on this planet with our clenched fist and, will leave with non-movable palm. We don't bring anything on this planet nor do we take back. So why we are worrying so much? This life is all about cultivating good habits in our lives. Saying NO to the negativity and inculcating good habits so that we can reduce the baggage in the next life. ( Yes I believe in Incarnation.)

3) Nature is the ultimate beauty

This one is the 4.30 A.M picture. Everything is so calm and beautiful. Flowers are waiting for the sunlight to open their arms. Everything is so systematic. Not a pinch of up here and down there. I am feeling the love of the wind as I am sitting near my window. One more thing the plants are dancing. Birds are chirping, chasing one another (maybe they are playing), and are ready to open their wings in the sky.  Sun is about to rise.

4) Know to grow from plants

Plants are the real teacher to tell you how we should grow.  I have already mentioned this in my previous blog. (U can check that if u want to😊)

5) Cooking 

When you cook with a happy mood, you can feel that in taste also.

Look around and feel the love. 

By discovering nature, you discover yourself. Maxime Lagacé

 

YOUR OPINION MY OPINION

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It was the year 2014 when I pleased my brother to create my Facebook account, after a few days he agreed and created my account and also told me how to handle this giant. 

My first expression was "WOW" this is so cool. I can interact with my friends and I text them. I can send pictures and many more. 

After spending a few of the months on this platform, I realized people have  Brahmastr and they can use it anytime, anywhere.

(In my words the definition of social media is Non-biodegradable floating debris on the ocean floor.)

Real thoughts behind brahmastr 

1) you can share whatever you want to. Like anything. (you all are so smart, you know it already).

2) The right to expression is accessible and people are listening to you.

3) You are approaching those people, you haven't met in your life.

4) You are having a keen eye on your friend's feed. BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU. 

  

5) Being the hub of updates.

PEN is dancing 

Everyone has full right to pen down their thoughts, their joy, anger, emotions, etc, but not at the cost of other mental peace. 

Every single time when anyone gets hindrance they started shouting their freedom of speech. There is freedom of speech but, not at the cost of curbing other's voices.

In the wake of the updates, we used to be in a hurry to share the thoughts on social media, share the news, and tell the people what's happening. Even if you are trying to update, somewhere down the line you are spreading rumors sometimes, because the news is yet to authorize. 

The social media has given us the power. And everyone is powerful. But how the world is using their power is a matter of concern.   

Pause a little bit

 Before being the updater of the world just pause. And ask some of the questions.

1) What I am sharing?

2)Why I am sharing?

3)My expression curbing someone's freedom/hurting anyone?

If the answer to all those questions is not satisfactory please do not post. 

I am not saying you need not post anything but, your post should not hamper anyone, just be sure about it.

Spread positivity 

Sharing Dandapani's positive vibe.

 

DARK

Sailing through the

Darker night

from my window

I found a shadow

moving with the wind.

The Soul is 

wrapped around the person

trying hard to come out.

Even in the dark

I can feel the light,

coming from inside.

An illumination piercing

through the shadow

lighten the surrounding.

The night was getting

 darker and darker

and the body fell down

I shouted, Hey, are you there?

उन्हें भी किसी का इन्तजार होगा

                                                               (Image Pinterest)

आसमांं मे काले बादल है आज 

जरूर सूरज ने एक कश़ लिया होगा

बूंदें नहला रही हैं पेडो़ के बदन को 

जरुर इंद्र ने जाम छिड़का होगा

आते जाते मगरूर हवाओं ने

नदियों को स्पर्श किया होगा

कोलाहल के साथ सिर्फ एक आवाज निकली

बडी़ रेशमी झुल्फें हैं इनकी

जरूर हिम ने इनका दामन छुआ होगा

सूरज को जल्दी है किनारे पे पहुंचने की

पर धरा ने उनका रास्ता रोक रखा है

बडी़ उमस है दिन मे

जरूर ये उस बेबसी का नतीजा होगा

जगमग है पूरा आसमां दीपों सा

जरूर तारों ने खुद को जलाया होगा

बाहें फैलाये खडे़ हैं पर्वत कब से

शायद उन्हें भी किसी का इन्तजार होगा

JANUARY, FEBRUARY, MARCH

JANUARY

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The knock of this year was not with the COVID,

but with the protests and riots. People marching on the roads with banners and shouting slogans and silently seating and protesting against CAA and NRC. 

It was the end of the month when we got the first case of COVID, but our focus remained on the Sahin bagh, students, men, women, and every individual related to CAA protest. 

Apart from all this, there was thermal screening was on at all the major airports of the country.

FEBRUARY

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The month was ready to showcase Donald Trump the beauty of Gujarat by blocking all the unclear and not so beautiful faces and houses by a makeover. On the other hand, many forces are deployed in Delhi so that the news can't catch Mr. Trump's ear. 

MARCH

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The month of color.

Just after holi our college has started and just after 3 days, the Bihar government announced the closure of all the school and coaching institutes till March 31.

It was 22 march when Bihar reported the first death due to COVID. Before that, the state had not even a single positive case. 

In between, on 24 march around 8 pm, our prime minister announced the lockdown 1.0.  

Today Bihar is standing with 4,915 confirmed cases and no more quarantine centers. The focus now shifted on the election, which is about to be held in November. 

Now back to the COVID situation in Bihar. All the activities now seem like there are fear-driven.

• People put masks only when they see the police. (in most cases).
• Vendors are only allowed till 6pm but they can continue beyond that in the absence of police.
• There is nothing like social distancing.

There are very few people who are seen with masks and holding meetings with proper distancing. 

RUMORS

5 June

Around 6.30 pm my grandmother came to me and said that there is a story I want to tell you.

I nodded

She narrated " There were two women going for a walk and suddenly they saw 2 cows and they started running, suddenly the cows turned into 2 beautiful women and they stopped the 2 ladies and said they are Corona maiya . If they want to get rid of corona they should put the puja materials in the unploughed land by digging the land with their hands".

I smiled and said this is not the truth. But she thinks I do not know anything. She still believes this story because it's on phone. 

With all those rumors, mismanagement and misunderstanding, we are ready to head towards the north as far as COVID-19 is concerned.

खुद कि तलाश मे

पाजेब जो पहनाईं थी तुमने

वो न जाने कब बेड़ियां बन गई

पता ही नही चला

गले का हार भी

धिरे-धिरे फंदा बनता जा रहा है

सो मैंने सारे जेवर उतार दिये हैं

वो मंगलसूत्र भी

जो तुमने पहनाया था

माथे का सिंदूर है अभी

और मरते दम तक रखूंगी

इसलिए नहीं कि

तुम चाहते हो

बल्कि, इसलिए कि

मै चाहती हूं

सोचती हूँ, अपने आप को

किसी के हवाले कर देना,

समर्पित कर देना

कहा कि प्रथा है?

गलती तुम्हारी नहीं है

तुमसे क्या गीला शिकवा

जब मैने बेवफाई खुद से कि है

जो लकीरें खिंचीं थी तुमने मेरे आगे

आज मैं वो लांघ रही हूं

खुद की तलाश मे

    

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