Seen & Unreplied

Seen and unreplied messages suck more energy. And more or less we all are familiar with this. Those blue ticks on your screen make you feel helpless, and you start to question yourself. Am I worthy in their life? Am I important even? What wrong I did? And many more. 

The problem is expectations.

We expect a lot from the person to whom we are typing. Sometimes we expect the answers also. No mood lover answer makes us lose our temper. We get angry. We don't talk to that person. Sometimes we don't answer them just to show that we are angry, and the irony which use to happen is that person was completely unaware of our thoughts and our anger. All those incidents lead to the loss of our mental health. It has nothing to do with the other person. 

Getting angry doesn't mean you are applying that tool to others, it simply means you are digging a well for yourself by knowing that only you can fall. How foolish!

Do your job

1)Do whatever you control. Like if you want to type, go ahead but do not expect. I know it's tough. 

2) Unexpected answers are the most realistic ones.

3) Do not imagine a moment that never happens in your life and anything to make a conversation.

4) Stay real.

5) Be mentally ready for seen and unreplied messages.

Do I need to stop texting

1)No, a big no. Because you don't know the person technologically. So judging them is a wrong step.

2)Maybe their behavior is like that.

3)Or if it's happening frequently than you know who you are to that person.

The damage done by the unreplied messages is very big as they disturb you mentally. 

Take a deep breath in and say bye-bye to expectations. 

It's a very long process but absolutely not life long. 

It's achievable.😊😊

Regards

Peace

BE IN PRESENT

The present is the best gift anyone can open anytime.

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In the present situation, we are dealing with two incidents. One, which we have already lived and the second one, which we all are not living properly. I am talking about the past and the present.

Past

Work is already done and now left with experiences and memories. So the situation is, it's not existing but it is carrying lots of power and energy to pull the person from the present to the past.

Reasons for this

Unresolved past

So many incidents that had happened in the past are not resolved yet, and they have immense power to keep anyone in the past. 

We barely talk about those incidents which heart us just because we do not want to put it in front and find the solution. Not talking, and not resolving the past is not the solution. 

Many of the times we go in A mind fight means we fight and we had arguments in our head, eg. Someone said something to me and I responded imaginarily, and again I said something and now we are fighting, and all these incidents are happening in our head. 

One reason for the head fight is, in our memory, we have saved moments either reactions of the person that is past driven and we are looking at the person form past prism which is irrelevant.

How to deal with it

Every single person is evolving and looking at them from past glasses is hazardous. We are curbing the person's growth, which is opposite to nature's move. 

So the simple solution is to be in the present.  Enjoy every single bit of the moment. Respect others' growth. And just be happy. 

Mood

Mood 

Pronounced as mu:d

is a noun which means 

a temporary state of mind or feeling

Let  me tell you it's something like a pendulum

When you think that I am moving through west

and not going to turn towards the east 

Suddenly you get zest and, 

changes your direction

It's like the weather.

Sun in the morning

And rain waiting in the afternoon

No matter how beautifully

You are defining

It will always be there to 

Bother you

COVID AND STUDY

Everything is going well simultaneously with COVID- 19. I am used to now, and its a new normal for me. My college promoted, my classes are going through LEARNING MANAGEMENT SYSTEM(LMS). This system is better as we are getting notifications of the classes on our mail, and we can also check the whole schedule, we can go through the class lectures as many times as we want. Everything is managed well. 

There are 25 crore students out of the school due to this COVID-19. ( According to The Hindu). Not everyone is getting their regular classes and most of them are facing some network issues, so even at this time, I am grateful that I have asses to a good internet connection and our college is conducting online classes so our study does not hamper. 

New technology has some issue also

For students

• This is for the very first time I have completely switched to the online system. So spending lots of time on the screen is a worry.
• An online study network is never gonna replace the peaceful world of the library.
• In the past going through the expression of the student's teachers use to understand what's going wrong (like we are understanding their points or not), but now they can't see us (in our class) its difficult for them and a big worry for us as we have to alert and ask questions as it becomes the sole responsibility.
• Discussion time gets lower.
• Sometimes lack interest in the classes.
•  No eye to eye contact reducing the interest in the topic.
• Studying in front of the family members is also a micro problem as they have asses to what we are doing and how we use to interact with the teachers.😄 
• The network issue is the new reason for absent. 

  For teachers

• Getting used to technology. They are also learning.
• Creating PowerPoint presentations.
• Having a track on the students. Either they are studying or not in the class.
•  Scolding students (a boon for us).
• And the common one is the network issue.

Quality of study

It totally depends on the teachers and the students. Their interest will define this. But no denying the fact that this LMS can't beat the chalk and the blackboard (for me at least).

(Hope you all are doing well).😊

गुस्से की पोटली

गुस्से की पोटली रात को बांध के सोई थी, जो सुबह मेरे हि सिरहाने रखा मिला। पर कुछ बदला सा था। रात को जो मैने पोटली मे बांधा था उसमे तपीश ज्यादा थी, जो सुबह कम हो गई थी। मैने सोचा थोडी आंच पे सेक दुंगी तो बिल्कुल सही हो जायेगा। एकदम तुरंत असर करेगा। आंच मे सेकते सेकते मन दिमागी लडाई करने लगा उस शक्स से जिसके लिए ये पोटली तैयार हो रही थी। 

उसके सवाल मैने पूछे जवाब भी मैने दिये। फिर से एक सवाल फिर से आग उगलता एक जवाब। ये शिलशिला चलता रहा।

दिमागी लड़ाई के बाद असल मे मै लड़ने के लिए तैयार थी। 

उन सारे अस्त्र शस्त्र का क्या फायदा जब युद्ध भूमि ही ना मिले?

मै सवालो के इन्तजार मे बैठी रही। मन मे सारे जवाब तैयार थे।

दिन ढलता जा रहा था और पोटली कि आंच मुझे जलाये जा रही थी। न जाने कब वो तपीश कम होती गई। मैने अपने आप को रोता हुआ पाया। आसूं बंद नहीं हो रहे थे, और उनकी रफ्तार इतनी ज्यादा नहीं थी कि उसमें गुस्से की पोटली बह जाये। 

सूरज सो चुका था। तारें जवान हो रहे थे। 

पोटली वाले गुस्से को मैं आटे मे गुथ के रोटियां सेंक रही थी।

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned- Buddha

Boundary

Twirling under the sunlight

I came to know that sky is 

So beautiful but, wait 

Do I know the limit?

Do I know how to reach the clouds?

That's the ultimate boundary

Isn't it?

In the hope of flying higher and quickly

I rushed towards the cloud in the rain 

rains are ready to bombard me 

With their pointed droplets.

And they have become more powerful

In the company of winds

I sailed and reached my goal to my limit

But, again I found a nonending sky above me.

Do I know the limit?

Do I know the boundary?

Music teacher

I was sitting with my brother and we were watching तुम्हारी सुलु. He said he is a good writer also (pointing towards the actor). I was like who? 

He replied- Manav Kaul

I was like he is Manav Kaul? (completely shocked)

 The situation was I know Manav Kaul, who is a writer of तुम्हारे बारे मे, बहुत दूर कितना दूर होता है, rather than an actor. 

He suggested me to watch the Music teacher, and I watched it the same day.

The movie is based on Shimla. The place where mountains talk to the sky and rain follows their conversation. 

The movie is not alien at all. This is very similar to our life. The life in which they're always going a tussle between the carrier and love life. 

In our early days, we use to run around the perfect life. A life in which we aspire to full fill our every single wish at the cost of departure of our love. 

Guilt is the heaviest thing on this planet, and the movie shows it perfectly. The past is not waiting for you it's gone so to hold guilt in the present and in the coming future is not going to help anyone and it's only going to harm especially oneself.

Most of the time we feel empty in the crowded places and it happens just because we are not in touch with the one special person, the person which we all need the most when we are so happy and when we are so tired and depressed.

I cannot write all the things which I have seen in this movie Kyunki Khubsurat cheezon ko Alfaaz Na Dena Hi behtar hai. But one thing I can surely say that the movie has great dialogue delivery and they have captured every single moment very beautifully and placed it in front of the viewers.

Do watch, it's on Netflix.

Do share what you think about the movie.

दोपहरी

जब सूरज सर पे हो और धर मे एकदम सन्नाटा छाया हो तो दोपहर काटनी पड़ती है। वो दोपहर एकदम अकेला होता है, और उससे भी अकेले हम होते हैं। दिन मे भी बहुत से shades होते है। सुबह एकदम शांत समुंद्र के जैसी ना जाने कितने राज छुपाये आती है। जब दिन चड़ना शुरू होता है तो सुबह की मासूमियत कहीं गुम हो जाती हैं। और रात हमेशा नसे मे आती है।

सूरज को भागने की जल्दी होती है भी कि नहींं, ये कहना मुश्किल है। उन्हें दोपहर में गुस्सा बहुत आता होगा तभी मुहाने पे बैठ के उबलते रहते है, और ऊसकी धीमी आंच मे हम पकते है। 

दोपहर कि सन्नाटे के साथ बहुत अच्छी दोस्ती है। ये अभी अभी कि दोस्ती है नहीं जो एक हवा के झोंके से टूट जाये ये दोस्ती बहुत पुरानी जान पड़ती है जिसमें कभी कभी अनबन हो सकती है पर life time का breakup नहीं हो सकता। 

दोपहरी के बहुत सारे राज है जो वो किसी को बताती नहीं वो बस इन्तजार कर रही हैं कि कोई उसके राज बिना बोले पढ़ जाये, वो मुहावरे कहे और कोई उसे एक वाक्य समझे। पर दोपहरी को ये नहीं पता कि इन्तजार दो धारी तलवार होती हैं।

बारिश

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तुम्हें बारिश क्यूँ नहीं पसंद है? लड़की ने रुआंसा मुंह बनाते हुए पूछा।

बस ऐसे ही

ये क्या बात हुई?

अरे, अब नहीं पसंद तो क्या करूँ।

बारिश सबसे खूबसूरत चीज है। बूंदें कितना कुछ कहती हैं। हँसती हैंं, खेलतीं हैं, गातीं हैं, गुनगुनातीं हैं। पता नहीं तुम कब समझोगे?

बिजली कड़कने कि आवाज आई और तभी लाईट चली गईं।

वो बारिश में बाहें फैलाये भिग रहा था।

हवा डायरी के पन्ने पलट रही थी।